What? Day 12…I officially missed a week of my 31 days due to a faulty power cord on my laptop. The first two days I have to say I was feeling pretty guilty. Then I let it go. The first week of practicing surrender really helped me not be so hard on myself for missing a couple of days.
Now, let’s return to the 31 Days of Surrender with… surrendering my Doubt. I struggle with this and I didn’t even know it until I confided in a godly friend about the way I feel about my relationship with God. I feel like God is not close. I feel like God doesn’t care. I feel like God has forgotten about little old me. I feel like I am less in God’s eyes. My dear friend told me that it is not about how I feel. When I listen to my feelings I am believing a lie if it does not line up with what GOD himself says He is. What is God’s character? It seems like it was once so clear, but somehow in the muddiness of my life I have lost sight of who God is. I praise Him. I worship Him. I pray to Him. But my feelings have tricked me into believing untruths about his character. This means that I must consult the Bible to find out about who God is. Without the authority of the Bible, any attempt to explain God’s character would be no better than an opinion, which by itself is often incorrect as I can testify to!
God is just Acts 17:31
God is loving Ephesians 2:4-5
God is truthful John 14:6)
God is holy 1 John 1:5
God is compassionate 2 Corinthians 1:3
God is merciful Romans 9:15
God is gracious Romans 5:17
God judges sin Psalm 5:5
but he offers forgiveness Psalm 130:4
I believe that God doesn’t lie, he is just and holy, and He does not go back on his word. I do I really believe this. But, how does He feel about me?
Because he delights in me, he saved me. (Ps. 18:19)
As a man rejoices over his new wife, so your God will rejoice over you. (Isaiah. 62:5)
Ahhh. It’s like a breath of fresh air! He doesn’t like me because I’m good enough. He doesn’t take care of me because of a sense of obligation. He looks at me and He revels in me just like I revel in my own children. He cheers me when I triumph and he hurts for me when I fall. He sent His beloved Son to die for ME. If I was the only one in the whole world, He would have died just for me. And He would have died just for you.
So, the next time you doubt if you are good enough, worthy enough, beautiful enough, Remember this… If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. If he had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. Whenever you want to talk, He’ll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart. And the Christmas gift He sent you in Bethlehem? Face it, friend. He’s crazy about you — and me!
